fizikal vs mental

dua perkara yang berbeza tapi sangat berkait rapat antara satu sama lain..

kalau mental tak kuat....badan senang sakit contohnya sakit kepala , sakit sendi....

kalau badan asyik sakit-sakit...lama kelamaan mental akan mula tergugat...

kes aku pulak....

these couple of years aku try menguatkan mental aku melawan anxiety disorder...

aku redah je walaupun sebenarnya aku berada dalam ketakutan pada masa itu...

aku ignore ...aku buat dunno...

dan aku berjaya kurangkan bilangan panic attack yang selalu aku alami...

tapi percubaan aku melawan secara psikologi, takes a toll on my physical well being...

aku perasan, aku makin kerap sakit kepala, aku makin kerap sakit sendi...

walaupun aku ada berjumpa physician mengadu hal sakit fizikalku...

tp jawapannya tak memuaskan hatiku...

so...aku amek keputusan untuk berjumpa psychiatrist...

dan seperti jangkaanku....

psychiatrist kata your anxiety disorder have shown its physical manifestation on your body...

thats why awak kerap rasa sakit....

dan dari saat inilah bermula kembali era lexapro dalam hidupku...

tapi kali ini banyak sgt side effect nya...

loya, cirit birit dan sakit kepala yg makin menjadi-jadi..

cepatla tiba next appoinment...

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Bye Bye Mr Lai

My boss resigned...his last day was 19 Nov 2010...i will remember your generosity profoundly when you gave me excellent score during appraisal time, although i think i didn't deserved it, hihi....Thank You & All the best wishes goes to you... Mr Lai...

Guess which one is Mr Lai...anybody who guess it correctly one chocolate sundae will be yours for free....!

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Sakit perut aja...

Dah kena start makan ubat ni asek sakit perut aja.....

Angin puting beliung beranak pinak dalam perut ni......

Perut jadik sungguh sensitif

:(

Loya sungguh loya...

Bila terlampau banyak sangat angin kus kus ...

Badan ni pon rasa lemah gemalai macam ditiup angin jer..

Rasa macam orang mabuk minum todi...

Kalau dapat muntah confirm lega...

Tapi malangnya saya ni tak reti muntah...

Terpaksa la tahan loya ni sampai hilang...

Agak azab la jugak...

:(:(

Tak sabar nak ngadu kat doktor...

10 Disember ni ada 2nd appointment...

the same day my sis nikah..

appointment saya pukul 8:30 pagi... huhu...haruskah begitu...?

tak ape la....demi kesihatan ku...

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Nak ikut ke tak ikut....nak ikut ke tak...???

28 Jun 2011 -> 5 July 2011....kekawan ofis Madihah & Husband dan Zul ajak join derang gi Jepun...

Derang dah book dah tiket pergi balik naik AirAsia RM 1800 utk 4 org including baby Anaz....

what a bargain kan....

Tapi diri tuan punya blog ini tak decide lagi.....

Memang teringin gi Jepun...lagipun cuzzin ku Jiha ada kat sana...

Tengok kat web AirAsia...tiket tu da naik RM1400 for that date....but still quite cheap..

Seyesly, sungguh tak leh decide lagi....

ku di dalam dilema

Ps.: Ruby, Korea pe cer? ...Ooops...cik ruby mana ade baca blog ni

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Minah Gian..

Saya sangat gian kat benda ni......

Nah ini lagi gambarnya...

Sabtu lepas kawan saya suruh saya cuba benda ni....mmmm sedap...dan saya beli dua bekas.....

Tiap-tiap hari lepas kerja saya akan makan benda ni....

dengan nasi putih, dengan roti , dengan ubi atau ratah macam tu saja.....

macam minah gian je kan...

benda ni namanya sambal ikan bilis kering...

tapi saya rasa boleh panggil serunding ikan bilis sebab rupanya macam serunding..

sesuai juga kalau nak di bawa travelling sebab ia tahan lama ...

mmm sedapnya...rasa macam nak pi ratah lagi benda ni sekarang....

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Esok Saya ada Appointment

Esok saya ada appointment....Yeay..yebadabedu...

Dah 2 tahun saya tunggu appointment ni...

Akhirnya, berkat saya amek half-day MC Jumaat lepas ada faedahnya...

Dan juga berkat kesabaran saya menunggu hampir dua jam di bilik menunggu itu membuahkan hasil..

Ini lah orang kata hendak seribu daya...atau dalam orang putih law of attraction..

tapi entah kenapa saya rasa saya ok pulak sepanjang minggu ni....

Semuanya Alhamdulillah baik-baik sahaja jika nak dibandingkan dengan minggu lepas...

Apakah mungkin kerana pertolongan kamu Cik Yasmin ?

Apa saya nak stori ek dengan dia...seriusly memang banyak sangat nak tanya.....

tapi tak tau la nak mulakan kat mana...hehehe...

otak ni dok bagi idea buat draft skrip dulu sebelum berjumpa supaya tak ade soalan penting yg tertinggal... tapi kemalasan mengatasi segalanya...hopefully esok sempat buat skrip ...hehe

Ps: Minggu lepas setelah 2 tahun tak berjumpa saya sangat gembira bila dia cakap saya nampak makin cantik dan berseri....(hai..perasannya...)... tapi satu soalan dia ni yang buat saya terkedu...

Why are you still single ? ... ha...itu salah satu perkara yang saya nak sangat cakap dengan dia...

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Adoi...

Dah lama tak tumbuh jerawat besar yg terasa sakit ni....

Dah bertahun-tahun dia tak menyinggah kat mukaku ini..

Tetibe plak dia ade...

Pandai pulak dia cari port tumbuh bawah bibir belah kiri..

Tak la menonjol sangat kehadirannya di mukaku ini...

Orang lain mesti kurang perasan sebab jerawat ni pandai main nyuruk2...

Tapi aku perasan sebab rasa agak sakit bila ku gerakkan bibir...adoi...

Cik Zy pasti ke ini jerawat ? Ntah2 bisul Cik Zy....Erkkkk..

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Turun tangga naik tangga

Sangat la tak sempat nak pergi jogging ok.

Pagi2 bila bangun tidor...

niat di hati ...

"nak balik awal arini...so boleh la jogging.."

tapi hampeh je...

walaupun minggu ni bukan turn saya untuk stayback...

tapi sebabkan saya ni pekerja yang sangat baik dan berdedikasi (haruskah exaggerate ?)

sampai umah je pon dah pukul 6:30 petang...

nak jogging amendenya camtu...?

sebab sekarang waktu maghrib sungguh cepat...6:58 pm dah azan...

tukar baju, solat asar...drive dan parking ke taman pon paling koman amek 20 minit...

abes tu jogging takkan la 8 minit je?? tak sempat keluar peluh pon kowt...buang karan je.

So... saya yang otak bergeliga ni mendapat alternatif baru sebagai ganti jogging...

saya berjogging pada waktu pejabat....

saya berjogging turun tangga naik tangga... dari tingkat bawah ke tingkat lima...

fuuuhhhh...berfeluh-feluh gak la wa cakap lu...

dan hari ni daku berjaya buat 3 round naik tangga dari bawah ke tingkat 5...

5 X 3 = 15 tingkat

Wa caya sama lu..!!

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My fulfilled Sunday :-)

7 November 2010 -> It's Sunday..!

My Sunday begun like a "normal" Sunday...but ended as an extraordinary one..

As usual, in the morning i will go to market to buy stuffs to cook...

Then...of course lah...once i reached home...i'll cook the stuff i've bought ...

At 5 PM, a friend of mine asking my favor to help purchased and packed things for the flood victims at northern part of Malaysia..

at first i decided not to go and just donated some money...however. after much persuasion, i followed her to Giant Kinrara...

which was the meeting point of the event...

There... i met my old school friend whom i didn't saw since after SPM ...what a small world indeed..

We started the event by purchasing all the things that we thought much needed by the flood victims such as diapers, instant food, milk, baby formulas, blanket, mineral waters, biscuits and towels with money that were donated in just 2 days time. Altogether about RM 5000 including transportation.

After that,we do the packing and loading all the stuffs into the lorry.

Only two person from the team will follow the lorry to Pokok Sena which one of the place badly hit by the flood...once arrived they will be helped by local people for distribution processes.

I felt happy, fulfilled and worthwhile having given the opportunity to help the people of the flood victims. i just prayed that the they will have a safe journey

Firman Allah dalam surah Al-Mukminun ayat 115.

"Maka apakah kamu mengira bahawa Kami menciptakan kamu bermain-main (tanpa ada maksud) dan kamu tidak akan dikembalikan kepada Kami?"

Secara teori, ia mudah kerana menjadi khalifah itu sendiri ialah ibadah kerana segala perbuatan kita adalah ibadah kepada Allah s.w.t. Kita diperintah oleh Allah untuk memakmurkan bumi.

Maka, jika orang tanya saya apa matlamat hidup saya, saya akan menjawab saya mahu menjadi manusia yang bermanfaat.

Matlamat hidup,tujuan hidup dan apa yang saya kejar di dunia ini hanyalah apa yang Allah suruh- iaitu menjadi manusia yang bermanfaat dan sentiasa beribadah kepada-Nya.

* petikan dari iluvislam

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An Episode @ 13 Floor

I can still remember...when i was a young girl...my aunt and her family rented one unit of condominium (at that time we called it flat) at 19th floor... when we came to visit them, my mom usually won't go upstairs and waited for us in the car... i always find it weird when my mom did that.....Luckily, they only rented the house for about 5 months and then move into a terrace house...

I also wonder during my mom working days (now that she is retired) why she always switched workplace once the department moved to a high rise building even though she loved working in that department....

Now that i'm older and wiser i found the answer of my mom weird behavior....its acrophobia or fear of heights...

Ironically, when i grew i older and after i was diagnosed of having anxiety disorder and panic attack...

i slowly developed acrophobia symptoms as well as claustrophobia and of course aerophobia...

My recent episode was when i'm in Malacca, i stayed at 13 th floor ....usually 13th floor was not a problem to me...

but i don't know somehow i developed panic attack just before i fell asleep....maybe it was due to stress i'm having on that week....yeah stress can trigger phobias and panic attack..... before i started to panic, my mind was racing through memories about my mom's problem with height.... my mind tried to imagine how would that be in her shoes on that time ....i don't know why i'm thinking of these things on that night....may be it was due to my stressed mind or my mental illness ?? huhu...

However, i successfully embrace and accept my panic attack episode without the help of medication....

i followed tips i read at Anxieties.com and it helps a lot......

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