Wednesday 30 November 2011

Iman vs Nafsu

"Tidaklah seorang penzina itu berzina tatkala dia sedang beriman, tidaklah seorang pencuri itu mencuri tatkala dia sedang beriman dan tidaklah seorang peminum arak itu meminum arak tatkala dia sedang beriman." (Riwayat Bukhari).


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Thursday 24 November 2011

Saya suka mewarna ...tapi..

saya tak punya banyak masa terluang untuk mewarna...jawapan yang sangat klise kan ....
tapi ia adalah sangat benar bagi saya....
beberapa tahun lalu saya pernah masuk kelas folk art di amcorp mall ...
sila refer disini http://www.creativecottageonline.com/classes.php...
saya sangat suka....rasa enjoy dan boleh release stress semasa mewarna semasa dalam kelas...
dan saya cuba untuk mewarna folk art itu di rumah..... tapikan saya rasa sangat leceh di rumah...
bila kena basuh berus, sediakan warna, hairdryer warna supaya cepat kering...
dan juga mencuci segala comot-comotan warna yang tersalah aim oleh tangan saya yg terhinggap di tempat yg tak sepatutnya....terutamanya baju.....saya jadi tak sabar huhuuuu

tapi semangat mewarna saya tak pernah runtun...
oleh itu saya beralih arah kepada photography....
masih dapat bermain dengan warna juga....
tapi caranya berbeza.....tak perlu berus-berus....
dan tak perlu comot-comot....hanya klik dan snap saja...
lepas tu upload di pc..... senang bukan.....
walaupun kosnya agak mahal...
tapi ia berbaloi bagi saya.....

peace yo..! :)





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Wednesday 23 November 2011

Deru Ombak....Ombak Biru....Ombak Rindu...

Lokasi : My hp Whatsapp

tarikh : 22/11/11

jam : 5 pm

Tetiba hp ku berbunyi.....ada msg whatsapp menerpa di skrin...

Madihah : Zy....jom tengok cerita Deru Ombak...

(Deru Ombak ..? CIk Zy terpinga-pinga sungguh....tak pernah dengar nama cerita tajuk macam ni....tetiba teringat bulan disember akan ada tayangan cerita lakonan Maya Karin & Aaron Aziz yang punya tajuk Ombak-Ombak jugak......tapi Cik Zy hilang ingatan nama betul tajuk cerita tu....)

Cik Zy : Deru Ombak......mana ada cerita tajuk tu.....Ombak Biru ada laaaa.....Aaron Aziz berlakon....

(Fuuuhhhh Ombak Biru.....dengan komfidennye Cik Zy tukar tajuk cerita tu....huhu)

Madihah : Ohhh silap-silap...hehehe ..Ombak Biru.....Jom kite tengok Khamis depan after work...

Cik Zy : Nakk ajerrr......hehehe

(10 minit berlalu......otak Cik Zy masih tengah berputar lagi.... macam pelik jer nama tajuk Ombak Biru....tak pernah orang filem kat Malaysia ni buat tajuk filem Ombak Biru.....tahap kepelikan Cik Zy meninggi....lantas bertanya pada Pakcik Google pasal Ombak Biru.....memang sah takde....yang keluar adalah Ombak Rindu okaayyy..... huhu.....lantas Cik Zy whatsapp Cik Puan Madihah)

Cik Zy : Diiii,...!!!!! Ombak Rindu larrr....

Madihah : Haha... btol tu...tadi silap...hehehe

:)




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What happened to the pictures ?

these 2 pictures are the only survivors............


one of the love padlocks that attract me most.....because i'm Gemini...!!! hehe -
@  Namsan Tower Love Padlocks 


me & the love padlock tree :D


-----------These are proof of my fail attempt to upload pictures....huhuuuuu...-----------
----- i guess i need to reduce the size of the pictures which are +- 6MB.....
--------------The question is , when will i do it ? huhuuuuu........






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Monday 21 November 2011

Exclusive for my blog - photos of Korea's day 1 trip at Namsan Tower


Exclusively for my blog....here i uploaded the pictures of our 1st day trip @ Seoul .....
i've uploaded  3 albums of my Korea trip at fb but none of them are the pictures of our 1st & 2nd day trip....so i decided to upload the 1st day trip in my blog instead.

Our first taste of original Korean food....the side dished are mostly made from vegetables...
its unlimited! can  top up if u want it some more....

Kami di Namsan TOwer


hmmm ...looks like blogspot only permitted me to upload only 2 pictures ...my attempt to uploads more pictures were futile for tonite....maybe next i'll try again.....






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Friday 18 November 2011

Saje nak story ..

Last week dapat berita officemate saya punye makcik yang duduk di Kota Kinabalu telah kembali ke Rahmatullah..
Semasa bercuti  di KK pada bulan April lalu bersama-sama kawan saya tu, dia  selalu aja bercerita tentang makcik dia ni...Saya masih ingat lagi cerita-cerita kawan saya mengenai makciknya itu...
Walaupun tidak sempat berjumpa beliau ... (sebab saya tak ikut kawan saya tu melawat rumah makciknye kerana saya pi melawat kawan saya ..)




Menurut kawan saya makcik dia tu ...tetiba ada orang buat dia hingga tak sedar diri terjun dari tingkat 3 apartment yang di dudukinya...selepas koma selama sebulan akhirnya dia menghembus nafas terakhir..


Mmm.... selalu terfikir....bila perkara-perkara macam ini terjadi terutamanya yang pelik-pelik...mesti ramai orang kita yang akan cakap perkataan-perkataan 'buatan orang' ataupun 'orang buat'...


Saya agak la kan...semuanya mungkin berpunca dari tekanan...stress ...kecelaruan emosi dan sewaktu dengannya..yang menyebabkan manusia kurang sedar atau kurang judgement yang baik tentang sesuatu situasi itu...sehingga melakukan perkara-perkara yang pelik-pelik... 
dalam erti kata lain ada masalah mental pada saat dan ketika waktu itu. (sebab sesetengah orang tidak sepanjang masa dia mengalami masalah mental....hanya waktu-waktu tertentu saja ...kecuali kes orang berpenyakit skizfernia, sbb orang skizofernia ni lain sket situasinya...)
sebab dari pendapat saya....bila emosi terganggu & otak celaru....memang kewarasan manusia itu akan jadi kurang.... manusia akan bertindak hanya mengikut emosi dan sangat impulsif di ketika itu tanpa berfikir panjang... ..


itulah betapa peri pentingnya kita menjaga kesihatan mental kita....kalau terdapat simtom-simtom ke arah itu jangan malu-malu berjumpa dengan pakar....


pagi tadi saya ter baca di thestar online bahawa kerajaan telah membuka satu pusat komuniti kesihatan mental di putrajaya.... 
saya amat gembira sebab ia berdekatan dengan orang ramai....tak macam Hospital Tanjung Rambutan dan Hospital Permai yang lokasinya entah di mana....


dengan harapan pusat-pusat macam ni dapat memudahkan orang yang stress mencari jalan penyelesaian sebelum penyakit-penyakit mental yang serius menjelma ....
No telefon : 03-8881 1732


Artikel penuh: 
http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/11/18/nation/9926836&sec=nation

My mode: Tengah physically stress....walaupon fikiran saya , saya rasa ookay...tapi tak tau napa sakit-sakit kepala.....nak start exercise balik....dengan harapan sakit kepala boleh hilang....kalau tak hilang juga terpaksa la berdepan ngan encik doctor..


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Wednesday 16 November 2011

Macamana Saya Boleh Jadi Seorang Gayat ?

Kalau nak tau saya asalnya bukan seorang yang gayat...
Dulu-dulu sebelum saya kenal penyakit Generalized Anxiety Disorder...
Saya Okay je pun ...kalau naik tangga tinggi-tinggi pastu pandang kat bawah...
Drive kat flyover ...dan yang sewaktu dengannya....

Tapi selepas beberapa episod anxiety dan panic attack yang bertubi-tubi datang selepas umo saya 21 tahum...
Sedikit-demi sedikit perasaan gayat itu muncul....
Saya cuma sedar yang saya gayat ni selepas saya pandai control episod panic attack saya tu...
(seksa ok nak control perasaan ni..... nak ajar otakku untuk control minda yang tengah kusut masai & celaru bila kena anxiety @ panic attack)
Yaa.... saya perasaan yang keadaan anxiety dan panic saya menjadi lebih spesific kepada sesetengah situasi...
itu yang dapat saya pelajari.. mungkin sebab dah lama penyakit ni saya ada... so saya dah dapat identified..
oleh itu dah banyak yang saya pelajari mengenai penyakit ini.... both through experience, readings and of course from my psychiatrist...

camana saya boleh gayat ni?
trauma terkena panic attack masih ada dalam diri saya...
cuma bila berada di tempat tinggi dan agak sempit jer yg menyebabkan saya terasa terlebih panic...rasa macam nak pengsan...itulah sekarang ni saya kalau boleh memang nak elak tempat-tempat begini....
sebabnya kan....bila kita panic tu kita tak sedar sangat perbuatan kita tu...kita cuma dihantui oleh rasa takut yg amat...
selalunya bila kena panic attack saya akan lari atau keluar dari tempat di mana saya sedang duduk untuk mencuba mencari tempat yg boleh buat saya lebih relax...
saya selalu terbayang bila saya ditempat tinggi dan tiba-tiba panic attack yang teruk menyerang saya takut saya 'ter'lari ke tempat yang tak sepatutnya saya lari cthnya tingkap ataupun jurang.... huhuuhuuuuu....itu lah dia kenapa saya tetibe boleh jadik gayattt.......

its so funny ...bila saya fikirkan balik (ketika otak saya berfungsi dengan baik laaa) camana laaa saya boleh terfikir begitu....
tapi nak buat camana...inilah keadaan yang patut saya terima...




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Tuesday 15 November 2011

Cerita-cerita yang membuat ku sedih


Why did no one help her? Distraught teenager sent 144 tweets expressing her pain before killing herself

Last updated at 1:20 PM on 11th November 2011
An 18-year-old high school student sent 144 tweets expressing her pain and grief before killing herself. 
Ashley Billasano did not go to her school in Rosenberg, a suburb of Houston, Texas, as usual on Tuesday morning.
Instead, the senior at BF Terry High School took to her Twitter page, posting more than 100 tweets over the course of six hours.
Tragic: 18-year-old high school student Ashley Billasano sent 144 tweets expressing her pain and grief before killing herself
Tragic: 18-year-old high school student Ashley Billasano sent 144 tweets expressing her pain and grief before killing herself

In the messages, the pretty 18-year-old said she has been molested and forced into prostitution, My Fox Houston reported.
More than 500 people were following her Twitter account when she tweeted, 'I'd love to hear what you have to say but I wont be around.'
And finally her last tweet,
'Take two. I hope I get this right.'
The troubled teen used the social networking website to describe how she  felt the first time she was abused. She wrote: [afterwards] 'I went to the bathroom and locked the door'

SOME OF ASHLEY'S FINAL TWEETS

9:45AM Nov 7th: There is somebody in my dreams
9:46AM Nov 7th: I want them gone
9:47AM Nov 7th: Kinda lonely right now
9:47AM Nov 7th: There was so much more I wanted to do
9:48AM Nov 7th: Ahhh well time to move on
9:48AM Nov 7th:  My thought process is too crazy
9:48AM Nov 7th: I totally think I’m bipolar
9:49AM Nov 7th: Or just crazy
10:21AM Nov 7th: My legs hurt. And my heart was filled with despair
10:21AM Nov 7th: I went to the bathroom and locked the door
10:22AM Nov 7th: I took apart a razor I had just gotten from the store
10:22AM Nov 7th: I did what I had to do to forget.
1:47PM Nov 7th: Well that’s. The story of how I came to be who I am. Well the condensed version. I’d love to hear what you have to say. But I won’t be around
2:08PM Nov 7th: Take two. Hope I get this right
'I took apart a razor. I did what I had to do to forget. I swear after that night I was never the same'
She explained that she had confided in adults about the horrific secret, but nothing happened.
'I remember telling my closest teacher and CPS and the police detectives' she said. 
'I remember having to tell them everything.'
Chief Craig Brady of the Fort Bend County Sheriff's Department told My Fox Houston: 'It's obvious she needed somebody to talk to and that's what I believe those tweets were. 
'She was trying to communicate and trying to get people to talk to her.'
Brady said Ashley had made allegations of abuse a year ago in Williamson County, near Austin.
According to friends the suffering Ashley wanted her death to make a difference even though her life had become insufferable.
Her 144 tweets, which took place over six hours on 7th November and finished a short time before she killed herself through suffocation, seemed to recount sexual abuse at the hands of a family member and other adults.
Ashly Escamilla, her classmate and best friend told the Houston Chronicle: 'This wasn't random. She planned this for a reason. 
'She made a decision that this was what she was going to do to get attention if she was not going to get justice.'
Loss: More than 500 people were following Ashley's account when she wrote her last tweets
Loss: More than 500 people were following Ashley's account when she wrote her last tweets
Loss: More than 500 people were following Ashley's account when she wrote her last tweets

Ashly Escamilla said that her friend had craved justice from 'the beginning' of the alleged abuse, when she was aged 14.
She told the Chronicle: 'She said police and CPS acted like it was nothing. She said it was like they did not want to believe her. 
'So, to go on living when someone hurt her, and no one ever did anything about it - wouldn't that drive you insane? To feel ignored by people who were supposed to help you. That was crazy. 
The grieving friend added: 'She had support from me and my boyfriend and her mom, but she did not have justice. 
'She needed to get her point across and to make it known that she was wronged.'
Ashly Escamilla remembers her friend as a fun, but caring person, closer than any sister. 
Ashley Billasano, known as Billy to her friends, had moved to Rosenberg only last year, but the two girls were very quickly, in their own words, like 'peas and carrots.'
The two school girls would sometimes dress up as Batman and Robin to go and get tacos at night.

Soon before her death Billy gave the 'other' Ashly a poignant reminder of their friendship- two glow-in-the-dark stars to attach to the ceiling of her room to see before she went to sleep each night.
Ashley Billasano's mother, Tiffany Ruiz Leskinen, told the Chronicle her daughter told a teacher about the sexual abuse. The school told police but the investigation did not go anywhere, she said.
Leskinen said that the detective told her that she had trouble believing Ashley. She said: 'Here is someone who has been abused and is forced to be silent for so long. 
'Then the one person you go to looking for help says they might not believe you.'
Young: Ashley Billasano, known as Billy to her friends, had moved to Rosenberg only last year
Young: Ashley Billasano, known as Billy to her friends, had moved to Rosenberg only last year
Investigation: Police looking into the abuse told Ashley's mom that they had trouble believing her daughter's story
Investigation: Police looking into the abuse told Ashley's mom that they had trouble believing her daughter's story. Ashley is pictured left

Chief Brady said: 'My understanding, that was looked into the sheriff's office there, the D.A'S office and a grand jury. There was no indictment issued.'
On her last day Ashley tweeted 'Weeks passed, then I got the call. They said sorry but there isn't enough evidence I hung up.'
'That's when I changed. I didn't care anymore and the people I was meeting gave me no reason to.'
Police said they didn’t want a lot of detail about her death to be published  to avoid encouraging copy cats, but said it might not be the first time the teen had tried to take her own life.
Brady said: 'Authorities believe this was not the first time she had attempted suicide.  She had learned the method of the internet.'


Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2060099/Ashley-Billasano-18-sent-144-tweets-expressing-pain-killing-herself.html#ixzz1dkWULlCl


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Thursday 10 November 2011

Asy-Syams

"Benar-benar beruntunglah orang-orang yang suka mensucikan jiwanya. Dan benar-benar rugilah orang-orang yang gemar mengotorkan jiwanya." (Asy-Syams: 9-10)


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Tuesday 8 November 2011

sinar mentari di korea

Baru balik dari Korea Selatan...baru touchdown pukul 5:30 pagi tadi..
banyak gambar saya ambil....nanti kalau ada kelapangan saya upload...

kesimpulan yang saya dpt buat dari trip ini:

-Korea agak mahal ... jika nak compare dengan China
-Seoul sangat crowded, 20 juta orang okay..selalu sgt jam...
-bentuk mukabumi Seoul sangat berbukit bukau dan bertangga.... penat ok tertonggek-tonggek mendaki...
-tekak saya boleh terima makanan di sini...walaupun hari-hari makan Kimchi dan Seafood....best apo...sbb tak oily dan sungguh nutritous
-susah nak cari orang-orang yang lebih berat badan di sini....sebab orang Korea kebanyakanya aktif-aktif belaka..pukul 3 pagi pon ada Ahjuma2 (Makcik) berjogging..
-orang Korea takde la lembut macam cerita drama Korea tu....Agak kasar depa ni..tapi kurang kasar sikit dari Tok & Minah Arab..
-Korea sebuah negara high-tech....mana-mana aja senang dapat Wi-fi...semua kereta ada GPS....dan lain-lain lagi....korang tau syarikat Samsung & LG ? haa tu company Korean tau
-Di Seoul , saya suka pergi berbasikal di Nami Island... sangat besttt...dan saya juga suka tour DMZ (Korean Demilitarizes Zone) berhampiran sempadan Korea Utara...sangat touching...bila tengok satu bangsa yang sama tapi berperang antara satu sama lain angkara ideologi politik yang berbeza....North lebih kepada Soviet Union manakala South lebih kepada USA...
-shopping pakaian di sana tak berapa menarik...mungkin saya pergi masa autumn so kebanyakkan barang yang dijual adalah winter coat , trench coat dan yang sewaktu dengannya...(takkan nak pakai trench coat di cuaca panas macam kat Malaysia ni...gile hapaaa....)
-Di Suwon , saya sangat suka pergi Suwon Folk Village ...walaupun mahal 15000 won ....tapi disebabkan saya amat meminati seni dan tradisi saya sanggup tengok Korean Traditional Wedding Ceremony show sorang2 setelah ditinggalkan oleh member2 yang lain yang kurang berminat....
-Di Jeju...saya sangat suka tempat ini.....pemandangan sangat cantik....ada laut tepi pantai dengan ombak kecebur-keceburr (istilah baru yg kami rekacipta bila tengok ombak putih menghempas batu-batuan di tepi pantai.....sangat best....)... saya sangat rekemen stay di Yeha Guesthouse dan sewa kereta di sana untuk pusing-pusing Jeju....semua kereta di korea ada GPS...tapi bahasa Korea....so kami setiap kali hendak ke destinasi seterusnya wajib menangkap orang Korea untuk setkan GPS (orang Korea panggil GPS = Navigation )..disebabkan di Jeju kami backpack ajaa....oleh itu kami dah get ready segala maggie, serunding  dan sambal kering...
nasi pulak boleh beli instant rice di convenience store yang banyak di Jeju...

Okie ...sekian Travelog saya pada harini


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