Sunday, 26 November 2017
Malindo Bites - inflight meal KL-Bandung
I've googled around for some info but didn't find any.....huhu......for my type of person who always hungry during flight, kind of fustrating not finding any info about the 2 hours Malindo KL-Bandung inflight meal from google....it made me really anxious....haha
So I just wait till the day came and planning to share in the internet what type of meal served in Malindo KL-Bandung route.....
Here it is.....
I' m sooo relieved....
it's a yummy pizza and yummy green muffin....munching them while watching Trolls inflight...fell in love with the green muffin eventhough don't know what made it green though....green tea perhaps?
Had to eat the yummy pizza with my bare hands...huhuhu.....a bit messy.....it will really help if they provide a plastic spoon or fork....or maybe a wet tissue to wipe off the sticky cheese from my hand...
and....uh haaa...the Malindo Bite price already included in your flight ticket....no need to pay extra for the meal......
Just sharing....
Sunday, 20 May 2012
Sukar menelan..???
antara kesan dan akibat pada tubuh badanku adalah saluran pencernaan atau lebih spesifik esofogusku akan mengecut atau menyempit...
bila perkara ini ter jadi saya agak sukar untuk menelan makanan....
zaman purbakala saya dolu-doulu....saya agak terre menelan ubat-ubat pill dan kapsul kapsul yang gabak....
tapi semasa saya dizaman stress melampau akibat putus cinta dolu-dolu.....
saya tersedar yang saya selama beberapa bulan itu sangat sukar menelan ubat dan makanan.....
dan saya selalu sangat tersedak dan tercekik ubat dizaman itu.....
sejak dari zaman itu saya mula fobia menelan pil dan kapsul.....
dan saya mula hanya makan pil dan kapsul dengan menggigitnya dahulu...
yer....ia memang sangat pahit dan meloyakan tekak....tapi saya terpaksa tahan dan sabar dengan rasa tak best tu buat sementara waktu....
korang pernah dengar cerita tak....seseorang apaabila terkena stress atau takut yang melampau ataupun panik yang melampau sampai boleh muntah-muntah....
itu salah atu simtom di mana saluran percernaan menyempit pabila manusia stress atau takut.....sebab masa tu badan manusia tengah membuat persiapan untuk situasi 'fight or flight'
sekian....pelajaran kita pada hari ni .. :)'
Just sharing....
Friday, 2 December 2011
Baru je ku sebut-sebut
Kuat betul instinct atok ku itu.... heheee
antara topik perbualan kami meliputi kisah adikku yang akan berpindah rumah duduk bersama-sama dengan suaminya ke Sarawak dan kemudian ke Penang...
waduhaiii....tak sangka cepat masa berlalu.....minggu depan flight adikku akan ke Sarawak...
dan aku ditinggalkan berdua bersama emak....
dan atokku sempat memesan....jangan tinggal-tinggalkan mak selalu.....
tapi tok....pesanan atok ni ku rasa ku tak dapat memenuhi dengan sempurna......
sebabnya cucu kamu ni kaki jalan dan kaki tak reti duduk diam rumah.......
hari bekerja pon, bila balik umah...malam kaki ni gatal sangat nak keluar gi tengok wayang laa....window sopping laaa
boring ok.... ku kan jadi cacing kepanasan kalau dok dediam kat rumah selalu....bleh jadik sawan gamaknya....
mungkin kalau dapat dok umah baru tak sesawan camni kot.....ni rumah yang dah 30 tahun tinggal disitu....
aku rasa ku patut ikot nasihat si encik idzuan fitri nordin tu kot.....upah orang gaji full time.....so senang la aku nak kluar gi jalan-jalan huhuhu.....
hmmmm.. patut tukar topik anak derhaka la entri ni......
Just sharing....
Wednesday, 16 November 2011
Macamana Saya Boleh Jadi Seorang Gayat ?
Dulu-dulu sebelum saya kenal penyakit Generalized Anxiety Disorder...
Saya Okay je pun ...kalau naik tangga tinggi-tinggi pastu pandang kat bawah...
Drive kat flyover ...dan yang sewaktu dengannya....
Tapi selepas beberapa episod anxiety dan panic attack yang bertubi-tubi datang selepas umo saya 21 tahum...
Sedikit-demi sedikit perasaan gayat itu muncul....
Saya cuma sedar yang saya gayat ni selepas saya pandai control episod panic attack saya tu...
(seksa ok nak control perasaan ni..... nak ajar otakku untuk control minda yang tengah kusut masai & celaru bila kena anxiety @ panic attack)
Yaa.... saya perasaan yang keadaan anxiety dan panic saya menjadi lebih spesific kepada sesetengah situasi...
itu yang dapat saya pelajari.. mungkin sebab dah lama penyakit ni saya ada... so saya dah dapat identified..
oleh itu dah banyak yang saya pelajari mengenai penyakit ini.... both through experience, readings and of course from my psychiatrist...
camana saya boleh gayat ni?
trauma terkena panic attack masih ada dalam diri saya...
cuma bila berada di tempat tinggi dan agak sempit jer yg menyebabkan saya terasa terlebih panic...rasa macam nak pengsan...itulah sekarang ni saya kalau boleh memang nak elak tempat-tempat begini....
sebabnya kan....bila kita panic tu kita tak sedar sangat perbuatan kita tu...kita cuma dihantui oleh rasa takut yg amat...
selalunya bila kena panic attack saya akan lari atau keluar dari tempat di mana saya sedang duduk untuk mencuba mencari tempat yg boleh buat saya lebih relax...
saya selalu terbayang bila saya ditempat tinggi dan tiba-tiba panic attack yang teruk menyerang saya takut saya 'ter'lari ke tempat yang tak sepatutnya saya lari cthnya tingkap ataupun jurang.... huhuuhuuuuu....itu lah dia kenapa saya tetibe boleh jadik gayattt.......
its so funny ...bila saya fikirkan balik (ketika otak saya berfungsi dengan baik laaa) camana laaa saya boleh terfikir begitu....
tapi nak buat camana...inilah keadaan yang patut saya terima...
Just sharing....
Sunday, 28 August 2011
Jangan sedih-sedih gi bangun carik daun kelapa...
Wednesday, 24 August 2011
2 hari M.C.
Sunday, 1 May 2011
Lexapro and Me...
Couples of day before 22 April 2011….
I loathed everytime I need to take my half pills of Lexapro. This is my 2nd round of Lexapro after i stopped taken it 2 years ago. Last time the effect was great…but this time was a terribly horrible experience…. This things really really super charged my mind and sometimes it shows in form of behavior until I have headache especially in the morning and before bed…. Everyday I wonder why the pills doesn’t work like last time and really can’t wait for my appointment with Dr. Kasmini to ask her why..….tick tock tick tock..
22 April 2011…
I came 30 minutes late for the appointment thanks to pendrive’s with password protection features that took my 30 minutes to figure out what’s the password (techy but not ssooo user friendly)..
Luckily the doc was ok with my lateness, but as punishment I need to wait for another 1 hour before I was called to see her…huhu….its ok for me, I loved waiting..
So the first thing I told her was the super charge of ‘high’ behaviour that I was experiencing when I took Lexapro.. (luckily I’m an introvert type of person, just keep my super charge minds and feelings to myself until I have very bad headache…what if im an extrovert…? can’t imagined what will be during that critical time, maybe i will scold everybody ? or doing crazy things never before in my life ? huhuuu) ..the doc found it really weird because Lexapro supposed to make me relaxed not high, then she started to read my medical history report with a confused look on her face……
AHAAA…the doc shouted when she found what she wanted… she said this supercharged experience due to me not taking my hormone pill together with Lexapro like last time….and she thinks may be I will not need Lexapro at all and just the hormone pills…and said anxiousness is cause by this hormone imbalance in my body…huhu…
However, she still ask me to continue with half Lexapro every other day and insist me to take Yasmin too, and see how I will response with these pills together until the next appointment on 24 May 2011
PS: However since that day I only take my Yasmin….no Lexapro at all…..so far I’m doing great…hehe
Saturday, 5 March 2011
Anxious Personality
Sunday, 8 August 2010
Krabi - layan blues sorang2
Thursday, 15 July 2010
A visit to Cameron Highland
Tuesday, 13 July 2010
Relapse
Saturday, 24 April 2010
trik-oh-till-oh-may-nee-ah
Characterized by the repeated urge to pull out scalp hair, eyelashes, facial hair, nose hair, pubic hair, eyebrows or other body hair, sometimes resulting in noticeable bald patches. Trichotillomania is classified in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV) as an impulse control disorder. It may seem, at times, to resemble a habit, an addiction, a tic disorder or an obsessive–compulsive disorder. Anxiety, depression and obsessive–compulsive disorder are more frequently encountered in people with it. Trichotillomania has a high overlap with post traumatic stress disorder, and some cases may be triggered by stress. Source : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trichotillomania
i have this habit..a habit started when i'm 11 yrs old...i like to pull my hair but not to the extend by removing the whole hair strand from the scalp, i just like pulling the hair until i can feel the pressure on the scalp. It helps to release some tension in the head. However, sometimes i accidentally pullout the whole strand and causes some small parts of bald patches on my head. Besides that, i also like to skin picking in the scalp area...can't stand the urge to do this especially when my scalp itches. A serious skin picking habit has its special term too which is known as dermatillomania. But my version of dermatillomania and trichotillomania doesn't hurt my scalp but it hurt my shoulder a lot because i lifted my hand most of the time to satisfy my urge in doing so. Day by day i will make new day resolution not to pull my hair or pick my scalp but ended to no avail. :(
Why i loooouuurrrveeee to pull my hair and pick my skin ? This might be the answer (Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dermatillomania)
In some animal models, it has been shown that animals which excessively pull their hairs have more endorphin receptors in their brain than animals who do not. Endorphin receptors enable endorphins to have an effect on the brain. If this is true for humans, people who are particularly compulsive about their repetitive habits may have more endorphin receptors in their brain as well. This may explain why sufferers get more enjoyment out of picking their scabs than others.
A tip from the web that i can consider to help with my mania from Wikipedia:
Tuesday, 16 February 2010
So far so good
Having anxiety disorder makes me afraid of driving alone, especially when I had couples of episode of panic attack while driving 2-5 years back. After the incidents I rarely sat behind the driver seat even though I have a valid driving license and totally depend on my late father or my sister to take me to and from office & anywhere that I wished to go. I only took on the wheels to the nearby and very (i repeat very) familiar places around my residential area, which makes me gradually, lost some of my 'route' senses in the
However now, it has been 2 years since I begin to build up courage to drive again, which started after I accepted a work offer by my current employer located just about 20 minutes drive from my house. This gave me no reason to ask for my late father or sister assistance to drive me to work, so (by hook or by crook) I have to drive myself alone almost everyday. On the first 3 months I had a few episodes of anxiety attacks while driving, however I managed to control it and keep on moving…. Yeeehaaaa…
And today for the first time, I unbelievably, drove alone to my friend’s house at Kota Kemuning Klang, which had surprised my friend with this achievement. She always had the thought that I am afraid to drive alone to Klang because I had previous record of losing directions in Klang even though I had somebody to escort me…He he….and not to forget, last month I managed to drive alone to Rawang, also to a friend’s house.
I realized that fear can be erased gradually with encouragement given by you or someone else to yourself. My encouragement comes when I realized that I don’t have my father around with me anymore to be my ‘driver’ and sooner or later my other ‘driver’, my sister will get married and stayed far away from us. Therefore I need NOT to be afraid anymore no matter what.
However I still have ‘phobias’ while driving on a flyover or a bridge that is too high above the sky, kind of makes me dizzy driving on the ‘high’way. Will try my hardest to counter the fear….wish me luck…!!! ...mmmm.. on a second thought, unless if i have a new 'driver' then i will not work hard to diminish my fear...hehehe....who wants to be my 'driver' for free ??? Any taker..?
Saturday, 14 November 2009
While Waiting for 5 PM
Why am i feeling anxious ? It is because these couples of day, the pain i'm having due to my anxiety disorder are getting worst when i feel anxious; heartache, headache, backache, feeling all part of my body being pressure by an unknown force....The cause of my anxieties ? May be it's because Lexapro's side effect? my doc has warned me the side effect in the first few weeks in taking Lexapro, but the side effect is much more worse compare to the previous treatment. Or may be i'm just tired after a session of futsal (well i don't think so....it is soooo unlikely causing me the pain) . Or may be i'm so stressed out for my sister relationship with her so called fiance is shaking again? mmmm may be.... it can be a part of the contributor....Or maybe because of my so called 'best friend'....Oh no.. enough maybes......
I'm just scared that when i'm out with my friends i will experience this pain and worst come to worst panic attack.... InsyaAllah I'll be fine....'Remember Allah and your heart will be at peace'
While waiting for 5 PM i made use of my time reading blogs.......and today's post that i love is non other than Sis Zabrina's blog
Blog: ~ Life Storyteller : Motivational and Inspirational Stories for You and Me ~
Post: The Story of Ice Cubes and Candles- Motivational Story about Calming Oneself Down When Distress
Link: http://wisdomthruwords.blogspot.com/2009/11/story-of-ice-cubes-and-candles.html
Wednesday, 11 November 2009
A new course of treatment
'you need to take Lexapro for 1 year' the doctor add some more instruction......Whatt!!! one year....?! Honestly i don't possessed discipline in taking medication on regular basis....that's why i failed in my previous course.....
'You also need to do regular physical exercise at least 3-4 a week to increase you endorphin, it's a feel good hormone, do breathing exercise when you get anxious and practice muscular progressive relaxation exercise for muscle pain... ' the doctor advise..... this one i can handle...insyaAllah.... must start hitting the gym again......
'You need to see Obstetrics and Gynecology specialist to treat your hormone imbalance' she add ...... wah another specialist....i wonder how much that will cost me....... for seeing a psychiatrist and plus medication i've already lost RM 350.....that's a lot of money...!! i hope i can claim from my company medical insurance....
Wednesday, 4 November 2009
Love you, my dear
I came to work this morning with the feeling of chronic worrying, my mother is sick and I didn’t have enough sleep last night. And today at 5 PM I have first time appointment with another psychiatrist (not my usual one as I can’t reach her line after a few try), after more than a year not seeing one it kind of makes me a little bit nervous. I can’t stop worrying until I become agitated, irritated and cannot focus even 5 minutes on my work. Then an email popped into my inbox…. It was from a dear friend and the email subject is ‘Contentment’… I read his email and suddenly I feel at ease and worry no more…. Because I realized no matter how much you felt alone or left behind, there will always somebody out there who love you and will be there for you when you need someone…
This morning my sister will undergo a minor dental surgery, she is really scared until to the extent that make her thinks to runaway from it rather than being into that situation. A couple of days earlier she had asked me to be with her during the procedure just in case if she ran away there will be somebody to stop her and encourage her to go through the surgery. ‘But I’m working on that day..!’… That was my excuse… then I’ve asked my cousin to replace me…he agreed but at the same time he laughed when I told him about my sister’s situation…. He said ‘If it was you then I believed you will run away… but her...? She’s a brave girl, a hockey player, an adventurous person like her … how could that be?’…. I just smiled with amusement…..
Yesterday when her fiancé heard the news about my sister’s condition as well as my mother’s illness (my mom just contacted flu yesterday, kind of makes me worry because she has chronic bronchitis), surprisingly, he and his family drove all the way from Ipoh to come to KL just to give our family support. I’m so touched with their kindness. Thank you to them & not to forget my cousin too for being there with my family in this difficult situation. Well, I think it’s time to call my sister to see how she is doing……
Some words that I love from the email subject ‘Contentment’:
"Contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want, it is the realization of how much you already have."
When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.
It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that! we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past,you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
Monday, 19 October 2009
How To Help Someone Suffering An Anxiety Disorder
Here it goes........
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As we go through this information, I want you to understand that this section is of
importance to those trying to help another person who is experiencing, or dealing with,
Anxiety on a daily basis. How you provide support to them may help them to control
their Anxiety to some degree.
First thing is first. NEVER belittle or try to downplay someone's Anxiety Disorder.
This is a REAL disorder and should be respected as such. Don't just dismiss their
episode as a one time event, or try and 'solve' their problem through rationalization.
You have to understand that when a person is actually going through an Anxiety attack
rationality is not something they are concentrating on. Or listening to. This is an
extremely frightening experience and no matter how much you'd want to, you CANNOT
MAKE THIS EXPERIENCE GO AWAY. Only the individual who is HAVING the
attack has the power to do this. Not YOU.
The absolute WORST thing you can do is to act as if they are LYING or ACTING to
get attention. This is simply not the case. While you may BELIEVE this to be true
because you have never yourself experienced the unrelenting terror of an Anxiety
attack, that doesn't mean that it isn't happening to someone you care about.
Imagine for a second that you had witnessed a "physical" accident that your loved one
or dear friend was a part of. Something you could SEE the outcome from. Wouldn't you
do everything in your power to help them?
What if they were trapped inside a car that was on fire? What if they were trapped
underwater and were drowning? You would want to aid them, wouldn't you? What if
they had stopped breathing? Would you just stand around watching them pass away? Or
would you do everything you could to administer CPR to them, even if you weren't sure
you were doing it correctly?
While the above examples are extreme, sometimes, to an Anxiety sufferer, it absolutely
feels like the end of their world. As if they are drowning in a sea of chaos and
disparity,unable to pull themselves out.
Also, by attempting to in effect ignore the Anxiety attack, you are probably contributing
to another disorder that goes hand in hand with Anxiety. . .Depression.
Instead of holding them down 'under water', try throwing them a life preserver the next
time they have an attack.
How can you do that? Just BE there for them. Let them know that while you may not
understand what they are going through, you are there for them and will stay until they
feel better.
Do NOT try and force someone out of an Anxiety attack. It could make the attack that
much worse for them. Just let the attack happen naturally, and in most, if not all, cases,
their bodies will help them come out of the 'hot' zone all on it's own. And if it doesn't,
get them to the nearest emergency room as soon as you can. Or call an emergency squad
to take them.
Also, NEVER try and give someone suffering from an Anxiety attack any type of
prescription drugs that have not been prescribed by their family physician. Seems like
common sense, but when you see a loved one going through such a painful event, you
really want to help them. Believe me, THIS WILL NOT HELP THEM. Getting them
to a professional source, such as an emergency room or their own family physician, for
help WILL.
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NOTEs:
As Malaysian... do you think this article is more useful if it is in Bahasa Melayu ? Because I think there's not much article related to mental illness which were written in Malay except in local newspapers...
Do you think that our Malaysian society is lack of information about mental illness, because they are scared of stigma related to it such as people who has mental illness are regarded as being insane or crazy ?
please response to my email mymentalhealth.blog@gmail.com or leave you comment here....Thank You....
Tuesday, 13 October 2009
When my mind become out of control, emotions went high and touch of reality fade away.....
As now i'm entering our office luchtime whilst fasting... i can spend my time to write today's entry.... and here it goes.....
Bismillahirahmanirahim...
When my mind become out of control, my emotions went high and my touch to reality fade away..... that's the feelings when the episode of mental breakdown occured to me. During episodes of panic attacks, anxiety went out of control, emotion going roller coaster and depression makes the big hit to the rock bottom. Sometimes (read: not all the time) when this scary moment happen in the office or anywhere else where i can't find somebody i trust to find comfort by expressing my inner feelings (read: in reality, it is difficult to find that somebody who understand what i'm going through during the episodes)....i will reach out for any medium that enable me to write my inner feelings ...and my easiest medium to reach out is my beloved handphone.
Here are some of my expression during my mental breakdown episodes that i've saved in my handphone, yeah i didn't delete the drafts.... just for future reference... and there's one i wrote using Microsoft Words in my office (obviously i forgot to bring my handphone on that day )
1. Date : 17 March 2009, Location: Office, Medium : Microsoft Words
'This is a story of me… on 17 March 2009…. A person who has generalized anxiety disorder, for about 8 year plus since first diagnosis… who has hormone imbalance which only can make me menstruate if I take hormone pills…. A person who sometimes suffers from depression in 1 hour and can be very happy 1 hour after that….. A person who had experience depression in her early life as a career woman and had the first panic attack when she finally becomes somebody’s girlfriend at the age of 21. And now on 17 March 2009 … the feeling of tense overwhelmed me thinking of…. Is there a good guy out there destined for me…? Who love me as I am...? I wrote this after a friend of me tell me about her problem… recently she become close to her ex-fiancée and wondering why suddenly this guy hitting on her again…. Then she kept receiving message from a girl… who claimed that she is getting married with her ex-fiancée on April!! I pity this poor lady because she is getting married with a guy who is still thinking of his ex-fiancée and not so sure about his feeling marrying her…. And I pity my friend because getting false hope from his ex-fiancée…. Why are guys always hurting girls feeling with his immature way of thinking and uncertainties? '
2. Date : 28 September 2009, Location : Office , Medium : My Handphone
'I need help badly ! I need to forget about something.. Everything bad that happened to my life in this year, I'm already exhausted keeping it to myself and i want out immediately! My office environment keeps the memories i want to forget or maybe the work environment that was not up to beat for me that make my mind have plenty of time think unthoughful thoughts and makes me remind of these bad feelings... Or maybe i'm just like this? Or I’m just too worried that my life turns out not as i expected how it should be like many of us here on earth ? '
3. Date : 18 September 2009, Location : Office, Medium : My Handphone
'I really need help ! i think my mental health is in problem so the effect of this mental things makes me tired physically.... i need urgent attention....urgent rectification....How do i make it go away ? Me, myself need always to think positive. There are help and cure for any ailments'
4. Date : 22 May 2009, Location : Office, Medium : My Handphone
'I don't want to eat Xanax but lately my condition is getting worst and worst ... i need help badly before i get burnout....Tekanan perasaan yang sungguh hebat ujian daripada Tuhan ke atas diriku... penyakit mental menyebabkan diriku mudah depress, panik dan fobia...sekarang ni takut pengsan je....jangan takut.... i'll be fine.... Allah ada.'
Wow.... when i read it back.... feel like i'm in total madness....... however i did survive through all the episodes.....I just need to be strong...... Thank You Allah for giving me strength..
Monday, 21 September 2009
Back in KL
and heyy.... 5 minutes ago i received a text from my ex-primary schoolmate which i haven't met for a long time eventhough we live in the same area..she invited me to come over to her house for catching up on each other session...mmmm interesting huh ?.. & i am looking forward to meet her too and this causes my anxiety level up again.... yeahh, sometimes excitement and uncommon event in my life makes me nervous and sometimes panic could hits me. My mind started running wild, excitements and unfamiliar situation are able to cause my heart beats faster and my breathing faster... these two factors can lead to panic attack, if provided on that particular situation i am not strong enough physically and mentally to fight those bad thoughts and phobias. One thing i can do to ease bad thoughts and negative thinking away from my mind is to ask someone i'm comfortable with to accompany me into that unfamiliar situation... having that person as a companionship can focus down my bad thoughts to her/him rather than going alone ..because by going alone i have me by myself, i will have all my thoughts focus on me... and only me ... and this will intensify my anxiety.
Sunday, 20 September 2009
A Little bit of ThiS & tHat .... and taDaaaa..!



