There' s a lot of stories i wanted to share.....however, i didn't know which one to start with....i'm just so overwhelmed with what has happened in this week... 'maybe'...
Happy moments: i went out to watch 2 movies with colleagues and friends.... on Wednesday night...a 3D animation (the title was so long.... i just called it 'Meatball' ) and on Friday night a Malay movie 'Papadom'....the papadom looks big and delicously mouth watering... the herbs inside it was also visible...wonder where i can get that kind of papadom? !
Oh.. and i saw the Twilight saga New Moon trailer while waiting for Papadom to begin..... Actually i'm not a fan of vampire movies but Twilight saga is a big exception... i love the story line, the cinematography, the location, the backgound music and sound effect, the cast..
can't wait to watch Bella and Edward in action again.... the opening is on 20 November 2009... hope i can catch the movie midnite opening..who wants to join me?
Yesterday i attended a course... a last minute registration... only a few days before, i've decided to register for the course as when a friend of mine ask me to be her companion throughout the course... well, even if she didn't ask me in the first place, i'll definitely go if i knew in the first hand that's the course is organized by company that i work for .....it's about Islamic Financial & Capital Market.... i've always wanted to learn about it and this is my wish come true....
What i can concluded in my own layman's opinion of the outcome of the course is that the Islamic financial & capital market .... like any other business entities in conventional financial and capital market they need to make profits for the sake of business, however the conventional ones are highly dependent on imposing interest to gain profits... but Islam prohibited riba', interest, dealing with haram products such as gambling, liquor and non-halal food as well as business transaction that are intangible, uncertain and undisclose.
Therefore Shariah councils are needed to come out with rules and regulations to eliminate these items in Islamic financial business products but at the same time are able to generate profits. This is the biggest challenge for Islamic financial entities... they need to create products which are not interest based or riba' to make profit ..for example they use a projection method to calculate the value of an asset in given term to buy a house from the house buyer and make payment to the buyer to act as a partnership of the house owner, consequently the buyer will pay back to gain full ownership of the house as the alternative of conventional housing loan method.
Sunday, 25 October 2009
Wednesday, 21 October 2009
7 Langkah Memaafkan Sahabat Sejati
Langkah 1
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Mengaku salah - anda seharusnya mengaku bahawa anda adalah punca segala masalah. Tidak rugi mengaku bersalah. Sebenarnya dalam masyarakat kita begitu susah untuk mengaku salah melainkan hanya menuding jari mencari kesalahan orang lain. Berterus terang dengan kawan bahawa anda benar-benar terluka dengan sikap mereka. Tetapi tiada guna anda terus bermasam muka dan daripada awal lagi anda sudah memaafkan mereka. Sikap berterus terang akan melegakan hati dan perasaan anda yang sakit hati akan terubat dengan sendirinya. Jika tidak percaya cuba lakukannya pasti anda dapat merasakan masalah pergi dengan sendirinya dan kepala anda akan berehat dengan tenang.
Langkah 2
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Jangan terburu-buru - Apabila mahu memaafkan seseorang janganlah terburu-buru melakukannya lebih-lebih lagi teman tersayang anda. Anda akan merasakan anda tidak boleh hidup tanpa mereka kerana semua aktiviti harian dilakukan bersama-sama. Apabila seseorang yang rapat dengan kita menggores hati pasti secara tidak langsung perasaan kita akan menjadi keliru. Perasaan sayang kita kepada mereka mula bercelaru dengan pengalaman yang baru berlaku. Sebelum anda melakukan sesuatu, tarik nafas dalam-dalam dan berfikiran sewajarnya dan ambil sebanyak masa yang anda perlukan. Buatlah keputusan yang sebaiknya sama ada anda mahu memaafkan mereka kerana anda betul-betul ikhlas memaafkan ataupun sekadar memaafkan untuk mengambil hati mereka. Apabila telah menemui keputusan muktamad , hendaklah yakin dengan keputusan yang anda buat.
Langkah 3
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Tanya kepada diri sendiri - Selalu bertanya kepada diri sendiri adakah perkara yang boleh anda lakukan untuk menghindarkan perselisihan berlaku. Hal ini bukan bermakna anda perlu memaksa sahabat untuk menyakiti hati anda tetapi apabila selalu terjadi maka anda akan tahu apa yang boleh dielakkan daripada berlaku atau tahu apa yang boleh berlaku. Adakah anda akan menilai yang baik dalam diri sahabat atau membiarkan saja ia berlalu ? Adakah anda memilih untuk percaya kepada sesuatu yang anda tahu bahawa sebenarnya ia hanya pembohongan semata-mata. Adakah anda sebenarnya berusaha mengatasi masalah anda bersamanya atau anda meminta bantuan rakan yang lain untuk khidmat nasihat ? Soalan-soalan ini secara jujur boleh membantu anda untuk berehat sebentar mengaudit diri sendiri dan memastikan agar anda tidak terluka lagi.
Langkah 4
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Jangan tunggu - Jangan sekali-kali anda berlengah untuk memaafkan orang yang anda rapat. Pasti membanggakan sahabat yang memulakan persengketaan itu dapat melihat di mana silapnya hubungan anda dengan mereka. Mana tahu sebelum anda menuturkan kata maaf terlebih dulu mereka yang mengucapkannya. Perbuatan memaafkan membuatkan mereka terfikir sejenak, tiada guna terus bermasam muka. Sedangkan perbuatan bermasam muka itu adalah sikap yang tidak baik dan tidak akan membawa apa-apa keuntungan kepada kedua belah pihak. Daripada kedua dua anda sakit hati lebih baik sama-sama memaafkan, bak kata pepatah buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih.
Langkah 5
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Tidak perlu keliru - Apabila rakan anda menyakiti hati anda itu tiba tiba datang meminta maaf, janganlah anda keliru. Jangan keliru dengan kemaafan yang mengatasi segalanya ataupun kemaafan yang menerima apa apa saja yang terjadi. Jika mereka datang dengan kata maaf yang sesungguhnya maka, maafkanlah mereka dengan hati yang terbuka. Minta mereka berjanji agar tidak melakukan perkara yang menyakitkan itu lagi. Namun, jika mereka melahirkan kata maaf tetapi anda boleh lihat tiada langsung terpancar keikhlasan dalam hati mereka cubalah memaafkan juga tetapi sentiasa berhati-hati kerana ia mungkin akan berulang lagi. Mencegah lebih baik dari mengubati, kerana mengubati hati yang sakit mengambil masa agak lama.
Langkah 6
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Bersikap Terbuka - Janganlah anda mengambil sikap sombong jika sahabat karib menghulurkan kata maaf. Sebagai manusia biasa mereka juga tidak lari daripada melakukan kesilapan, Memang kita tidak boleh mengulangi masa lampau tetapi cubalah bersikap terbuka, positif dan sentiasa memaafkan. Perbuatan memaafkan ini merupakan terapi baik untuk hati. Anda perlu cuba mencari jalan mengatasi dan maafkanlah mereka. Memang mereka tidak punyai kuasa untuk menghilangkan kekecewaan tetapi itu semua bergantung kepada diri anda sendiri.
Langkah 7
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Jangan takut bertanya kedua kali - Sebagai seorang yang sudah matang dalam kehidupan, anda tidak perlu takut untuk bertanya kali kedua. Proses kemaafan bukanlah perkara yang mudah. Oleh itu cubalah sebaik mungkin dengan tiada paksaan. Mungkin anda mengambil masa untuk mengatasi perasaan yang sakit itu. Jika seseorang benar benar memerlikan kemaafan pasti dia akan benar benar berusaha untuk mencapainya.
Sumber : Majalah Midi 15 Oktober 2009, ms 94-95
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Hari semalam di petang yang tak berapa nak indah....Ini pertama kali terjumpa, terbeli dan terbaca majalah Midi. Hmmm.... mungkin tetiba berjodoh pulak nak bertemu majalah ni... huhu....Sebelum ni memang tak pernah dengar langsung pasal majalah ni.
Kerana diriku ini tetibe jer rasa tak boleh nak concentrate lagi buat keje kat opis sebab jiwa kacau dapat sejibik email ....lantas ku angkut beg keluar dari ofis dan melepak di kedai buku.... perghh macam la opis tu dia yang punya share... Mula-mula tu masa melepak kat kedai buku mamak di sebuah kawasan perumahan terkemuka di Kuala Lumpur tercinta ni, cuma belek-belek gitu-gitu apek jer majalah ni....belek-punya-belek terjumpa a nice artikel, tapi bukan artikel ditulis di atas tau .... artikel yang lain tajuknya 'Bersabar Gunakan Akal yang Tajam'.... tengah-tengah baca tu macam tak sedap hati la pulak sebab ada mata-mata yang menjeling (kalo jeling nak ngorat ok gak la.... tapi ni jeling macam nak makan orang je)
So tak semena-mena hanya kerana nak habiskan baca artikel tadi tu terkorban la RM4.20.....tapi Alhamdulillah memang tak rugi pon, banyak informasi yang berguna ada dalam majalah ni. Dalam masa 2 jam je dah abes melayan baca kat library sebelah rumah ni. Bila dah habis melayan barulah tersedar iklan kat mukasurat belakang akan tema Majalah Midi ni 'Satu-satunya majalah untuk wanita berusia 40 tahun ke atas di Malaysia'... Alamak belum cukup umur la !!
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Mengaku salah - anda seharusnya mengaku bahawa anda adalah punca segala masalah. Tidak rugi mengaku bersalah. Sebenarnya dalam masyarakat kita begitu susah untuk mengaku salah melainkan hanya menuding jari mencari kesalahan orang lain. Berterus terang dengan kawan bahawa anda benar-benar terluka dengan sikap mereka. Tetapi tiada guna anda terus bermasam muka dan daripada awal lagi anda sudah memaafkan mereka. Sikap berterus terang akan melegakan hati dan perasaan anda yang sakit hati akan terubat dengan sendirinya. Jika tidak percaya cuba lakukannya pasti anda dapat merasakan masalah pergi dengan sendirinya dan kepala anda akan berehat dengan tenang.
Langkah 2
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Jangan terburu-buru - Apabila mahu memaafkan seseorang janganlah terburu-buru melakukannya lebih-lebih lagi teman tersayang anda. Anda akan merasakan anda tidak boleh hidup tanpa mereka kerana semua aktiviti harian dilakukan bersama-sama. Apabila seseorang yang rapat dengan kita menggores hati pasti secara tidak langsung perasaan kita akan menjadi keliru. Perasaan sayang kita kepada mereka mula bercelaru dengan pengalaman yang baru berlaku. Sebelum anda melakukan sesuatu, tarik nafas dalam-dalam dan berfikiran sewajarnya dan ambil sebanyak masa yang anda perlukan. Buatlah keputusan yang sebaiknya sama ada anda mahu memaafkan mereka kerana anda betul-betul ikhlas memaafkan ataupun sekadar memaafkan untuk mengambil hati mereka. Apabila telah menemui keputusan muktamad , hendaklah yakin dengan keputusan yang anda buat.
Langkah 3
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Tanya kepada diri sendiri - Selalu bertanya kepada diri sendiri adakah perkara yang boleh anda lakukan untuk menghindarkan perselisihan berlaku. Hal ini bukan bermakna anda perlu memaksa sahabat untuk menyakiti hati anda tetapi apabila selalu terjadi maka anda akan tahu apa yang boleh dielakkan daripada berlaku atau tahu apa yang boleh berlaku. Adakah anda akan menilai yang baik dalam diri sahabat atau membiarkan saja ia berlalu ? Adakah anda memilih untuk percaya kepada sesuatu yang anda tahu bahawa sebenarnya ia hanya pembohongan semata-mata. Adakah anda sebenarnya berusaha mengatasi masalah anda bersamanya atau anda meminta bantuan rakan yang lain untuk khidmat nasihat ? Soalan-soalan ini secara jujur boleh membantu anda untuk berehat sebentar mengaudit diri sendiri dan memastikan agar anda tidak terluka lagi.
Langkah 4
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Jangan tunggu - Jangan sekali-kali anda berlengah untuk memaafkan orang yang anda rapat. Pasti membanggakan sahabat yang memulakan persengketaan itu dapat melihat di mana silapnya hubungan anda dengan mereka. Mana tahu sebelum anda menuturkan kata maaf terlebih dulu mereka yang mengucapkannya. Perbuatan memaafkan membuatkan mereka terfikir sejenak, tiada guna terus bermasam muka. Sedangkan perbuatan bermasam muka itu adalah sikap yang tidak baik dan tidak akan membawa apa-apa keuntungan kepada kedua belah pihak. Daripada kedua dua anda sakit hati lebih baik sama-sama memaafkan, bak kata pepatah buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih.
Langkah 5
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Tidak perlu keliru - Apabila rakan anda menyakiti hati anda itu tiba tiba datang meminta maaf, janganlah anda keliru. Jangan keliru dengan kemaafan yang mengatasi segalanya ataupun kemaafan yang menerima apa apa saja yang terjadi. Jika mereka datang dengan kata maaf yang sesungguhnya maka, maafkanlah mereka dengan hati yang terbuka. Minta mereka berjanji agar tidak melakukan perkara yang menyakitkan itu lagi. Namun, jika mereka melahirkan kata maaf tetapi anda boleh lihat tiada langsung terpancar keikhlasan dalam hati mereka cubalah memaafkan juga tetapi sentiasa berhati-hati kerana ia mungkin akan berulang lagi. Mencegah lebih baik dari mengubati, kerana mengubati hati yang sakit mengambil masa agak lama.
Langkah 6
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Bersikap Terbuka - Janganlah anda mengambil sikap sombong jika sahabat karib menghulurkan kata maaf. Sebagai manusia biasa mereka juga tidak lari daripada melakukan kesilapan, Memang kita tidak boleh mengulangi masa lampau tetapi cubalah bersikap terbuka, positif dan sentiasa memaafkan. Perbuatan memaafkan ini merupakan terapi baik untuk hati. Anda perlu cuba mencari jalan mengatasi dan maafkanlah mereka. Memang mereka tidak punyai kuasa untuk menghilangkan kekecewaan tetapi itu semua bergantung kepada diri anda sendiri.
Langkah 7
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Jangan takut bertanya kedua kali - Sebagai seorang yang sudah matang dalam kehidupan, anda tidak perlu takut untuk bertanya kali kedua. Proses kemaafan bukanlah perkara yang mudah. Oleh itu cubalah sebaik mungkin dengan tiada paksaan. Mungkin anda mengambil masa untuk mengatasi perasaan yang sakit itu. Jika seseorang benar benar memerlikan kemaafan pasti dia akan benar benar berusaha untuk mencapainya.
Sumber : Majalah Midi 15 Oktober 2009, ms 94-95
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Hari semalam di petang yang tak berapa nak indah....Ini pertama kali terjumpa, terbeli dan terbaca majalah Midi. Hmmm.... mungkin tetiba berjodoh pulak nak bertemu majalah ni... huhu....Sebelum ni memang tak pernah dengar langsung pasal majalah ni.
Kerana diriku ini tetibe jer rasa tak boleh nak concentrate lagi buat keje kat opis sebab jiwa kacau dapat sejibik email ....lantas ku angkut beg keluar dari ofis dan melepak di kedai buku.... perghh macam la opis tu dia yang punya share... Mula-mula tu masa melepak kat kedai buku mamak di sebuah kawasan perumahan terkemuka di Kuala Lumpur tercinta ni, cuma belek-belek gitu-gitu apek jer majalah ni....belek-punya-belek terjumpa a nice artikel, tapi bukan artikel ditulis di atas tau .... artikel yang lain tajuknya 'Bersabar Gunakan Akal yang Tajam'.... tengah-tengah baca tu macam tak sedap hati la pulak sebab ada mata-mata yang menjeling (kalo jeling nak ngorat ok gak la.... tapi ni jeling macam nak makan orang je)
So tak semena-mena hanya kerana nak habiskan baca artikel tadi tu terkorban la RM4.20.....tapi Alhamdulillah memang tak rugi pon, banyak informasi yang berguna ada dalam majalah ni. Dalam masa 2 jam je dah abes melayan baca kat library sebelah rumah ni. Bila dah habis melayan barulah tersedar iklan kat mukasurat belakang akan tema Majalah Midi ni 'Satu-satunya majalah untuk wanita berusia 40 tahun ke atas di Malaysia'... Alamak belum cukup umur la !!
Monday, 19 October 2009
How To Help Someone Suffering An Anxiety Disorder
This is very useful article if you encounter someone having a panick or anxiety attack, obtained from Getting To Know Anxiety http://www.backfrominsanity.com/. When i first read this article, it really does reflect what type of support i need during the episode of panic attack.... all i just wanted is a space where i can fight the feelings but at the same time i know there's someone i trust is there and knows i'm having an episode.... there are maybe some words of encouragement that i can tolerate which are 'Everything will be fine, it's only panic attack', 'hanging there, focus that you will be fine' and 'Allah always be with you', however it depends on the severity of the attack...at some time (the worst ever episode especially when i forgot to bring my prescription drug from Doctor or when the attack occurs due to drugs withdrawal effect) even a single noise will make me more disturbed.
Here it goes........
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As we go through this information, I want you to understand that this section is of
importance to those trying to help another person who is experiencing, or dealing with,
Anxiety on a daily basis. How you provide support to them may help them to control
their Anxiety to some degree.
First thing is first. NEVER belittle or try to downplay someone's Anxiety Disorder.
This is a REAL disorder and should be respected as such. Don't just dismiss their
episode as a one time event, or try and 'solve' their problem through rationalization.
You have to understand that when a person is actually going through an Anxiety attack
rationality is not something they are concentrating on. Or listening to. This is an
extremely frightening experience and no matter how much you'd want to, you CANNOT
MAKE THIS EXPERIENCE GO AWAY. Only the individual who is HAVING the
attack has the power to do this. Not YOU.
The absolute WORST thing you can do is to act as if they are LYING or ACTING to
get attention. This is simply not the case. While you may BELIEVE this to be true
because you have never yourself experienced the unrelenting terror of an Anxiety
attack, that doesn't mean that it isn't happening to someone you care about.
Imagine for a second that you had witnessed a "physical" accident that your loved one
or dear friend was a part of. Something you could SEE the outcome from. Wouldn't you
do everything in your power to help them?
What if they were trapped inside a car that was on fire? What if they were trapped
underwater and were drowning? You would want to aid them, wouldn't you? What if
they had stopped breathing? Would you just stand around watching them pass away? Or
would you do everything you could to administer CPR to them, even if you weren't sure
you were doing it correctly?
While the above examples are extreme, sometimes, to an Anxiety sufferer, it absolutely
feels like the end of their world. As if they are drowning in a sea of chaos and
disparity,unable to pull themselves out.
Also, by attempting to in effect ignore the Anxiety attack, you are probably contributing
to another disorder that goes hand in hand with Anxiety. . .Depression.
Instead of holding them down 'under water', try throwing them a life preserver the next
time they have an attack.
How can you do that? Just BE there for them. Let them know that while you may not
understand what they are going through, you are there for them and will stay until they
feel better.
Do NOT try and force someone out of an Anxiety attack. It could make the attack that
much worse for them. Just let the attack happen naturally, and in most, if not all, cases,
their bodies will help them come out of the 'hot' zone all on it's own. And if it doesn't,
get them to the nearest emergency room as soon as you can. Or call an emergency squad
to take them.
Also, NEVER try and give someone suffering from an Anxiety attack any type of
prescription drugs that have not been prescribed by their family physician. Seems like
common sense, but when you see a loved one going through such a painful event, you
really want to help them. Believe me, THIS WILL NOT HELP THEM. Getting them
to a professional source, such as an emergency room or their own family physician, for
help WILL.
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NOTEs:
As Malaysian... do you think this article is more useful if it is in Bahasa Melayu ? Because I think there's not much article related to mental illness which were written in Malay except in local newspapers...
Do you think that our Malaysian society is lack of information about mental illness, because they are scared of stigma related to it such as people who has mental illness are regarded as being insane or crazy ?
please response to my email mymentalhealth.blog@gmail.com or leave you comment here....Thank You....
Here it goes........
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
As we go through this information, I want you to understand that this section is of
importance to those trying to help another person who is experiencing, or dealing with,
Anxiety on a daily basis. How you provide support to them may help them to control
their Anxiety to some degree.
First thing is first. NEVER belittle or try to downplay someone's Anxiety Disorder.
This is a REAL disorder and should be respected as such. Don't just dismiss their
episode as a one time event, or try and 'solve' their problem through rationalization.
You have to understand that when a person is actually going through an Anxiety attack
rationality is not something they are concentrating on. Or listening to. This is an
extremely frightening experience and no matter how much you'd want to, you CANNOT
MAKE THIS EXPERIENCE GO AWAY. Only the individual who is HAVING the
attack has the power to do this. Not YOU.
The absolute WORST thing you can do is to act as if they are LYING or ACTING to
get attention. This is simply not the case. While you may BELIEVE this to be true
because you have never yourself experienced the unrelenting terror of an Anxiety
attack, that doesn't mean that it isn't happening to someone you care about.
Imagine for a second that you had witnessed a "physical" accident that your loved one
or dear friend was a part of. Something you could SEE the outcome from. Wouldn't you
do everything in your power to help them?
What if they were trapped inside a car that was on fire? What if they were trapped
underwater and were drowning? You would want to aid them, wouldn't you? What if
they had stopped breathing? Would you just stand around watching them pass away? Or
would you do everything you could to administer CPR to them, even if you weren't sure
you were doing it correctly?
While the above examples are extreme, sometimes, to an Anxiety sufferer, it absolutely
feels like the end of their world. As if they are drowning in a sea of chaos and
disparity,unable to pull themselves out.
Also, by attempting to in effect ignore the Anxiety attack, you are probably contributing
to another disorder that goes hand in hand with Anxiety. . .Depression.
Instead of holding them down 'under water', try throwing them a life preserver the next
time they have an attack.
How can you do that? Just BE there for them. Let them know that while you may not
understand what they are going through, you are there for them and will stay until they
feel better.
Do NOT try and force someone out of an Anxiety attack. It could make the attack that
much worse for them. Just let the attack happen naturally, and in most, if not all, cases,
their bodies will help them come out of the 'hot' zone all on it's own. And if it doesn't,
get them to the nearest emergency room as soon as you can. Or call an emergency squad
to take them.
Also, NEVER try and give someone suffering from an Anxiety attack any type of
prescription drugs that have not been prescribed by their family physician. Seems like
common sense, but when you see a loved one going through such a painful event, you
really want to help them. Believe me, THIS WILL NOT HELP THEM. Getting them
to a professional source, such as an emergency room or their own family physician, for
help WILL.
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NOTEs:
As Malaysian... do you think this article is more useful if it is in Bahasa Melayu ? Because I think there's not much article related to mental illness which were written in Malay except in local newspapers...
Do you think that our Malaysian society is lack of information about mental illness, because they are scared of stigma related to it such as people who has mental illness are regarded as being insane or crazy ?
please response to my email mymentalhealth.blog@gmail.com or leave you comment here....Thank You....
Sunday, 18 October 2009
Lepak kali ke 3 di Williams
Tadi baru balik dari makan malam kat Williams...Ini kali ke-3 lepak di Mamak Williams... siap boleh kira dengan tepat lagi jitu tu ....Actually dah 7 kali kawan-kawanku mengajak ke sana... tapi yang cuma dapat join 3 kali je....First time makan kat Williams ni dengan family and family dari Ipoh....punya la excited semuanya sampai semua orang diwajibkan meng'order' juadah yang berbeza-beza supaya kami dapat merasa makanan-makanan kat situ melalui satu sesi pusingan rasa-merasa dan jamah menjamah ... Sesape yg pernah makan kat situ memang tau William ni terkenal dengan keunikan makanan nye yg bersaiz untuk yang mempunyai perut ala-ala perut lembu yang ade 4 komponen tu (Ingat lagi tak kat sekolah kita pernah belajar pasal sistem penghadaman perut lembu tu camane....siap ade tempat simpanan makanan lagi tu...) Menu-menunya pon menarik2 belaka....mee raja la...tripple H la...chicken kiev la...hidangan pasta, italians, malaysian dan bermacam2 lagi...
Masa nak pergi tu ade rasa 'anxious' sbb ingat2 lupa jalan nak ke sana... sesat jugak tapi berjaya jumpa jalan pulang ke William... area Kelana Jaya tu pusing-pusing tang tu jugak.... Tadi cuma pergi berdua je.... sepatutnye bertiga.... tapi last minute pulak member sorang lagi tu tak dapat join....alahai...dah la lama tak jumpa minah sorang ni, tp dia tak dapat join pulak....Walaupun pergi berdua je....tapi berborak punya berborak tak sedar dah 2 jam kat William makanan dah habis makan dalam masa setengah jam je dah licin tapi sesi berboraknye lagi lama dari sesi makan ....pukul 11.30 malam baru start kereta balik rumah....eh sebelum balik tu sempat jugak rembat cd lagu 3 for RM16...
Petang sebelum pergi Williams tu dapat sms dari ex-officemate.... dia nak pergi buat Haji.... bagusnya ...rasanya last year pon dia baru pergi Mekah...tapi tak ingat for Umrah ke Haji...tapi rasanya macam buat Haji....Atas urusan kerja sesambil buat Haji sebab company lama tu ade projek dengan jemaah Haji.....last year sempat gak la pesan kat dia suruh doakan tuan empunya blog ni dimurahkan rezeki dan ditemukan jodoh....Dan kali ni dia tanya lagi, nak mintak tolong doakan apa depan Kaabah... mmmm ikutkan rasa hati macam nak suruh dia doakan benda yang sama macam last year....tapi sound desperate la plak....hehehhe.... ape ye nak mintak ? MMMMMMmmm....Fikir punye fikir rasanya macam dah tau dah nak mintak dia tolong doakan apa depan Kaabah tu.....tapi biarlah rahsia....semoga permintaan doaku dimakbulkan Allah, Amin.
Sekarang ni malam-malam buta asyik hujan lebat jer kat sini....petir kilat pun tak kurang juga nak sambung menyambung dan sambar menyambar ni......mintak2 jgn sambar lappyku dan wifiku sudah la.....kena cabut plug ni cepat2....takut gak betul2 disambarnye ...... Assalamualaikum....
Masa nak pergi tu ade rasa 'anxious' sbb ingat2 lupa jalan nak ke sana... sesat jugak tapi berjaya jumpa jalan pulang ke William... area Kelana Jaya tu pusing-pusing tang tu jugak.... Tadi cuma pergi berdua je.... sepatutnye bertiga.... tapi last minute pulak member sorang lagi tu tak dapat join....alahai...dah la lama tak jumpa minah sorang ni, tp dia tak dapat join pulak....Walaupun pergi berdua je....tapi berborak punya berborak tak sedar dah 2 jam kat William makanan dah habis makan dalam masa setengah jam je dah licin tapi sesi berboraknye lagi lama dari sesi makan ....pukul 11.30 malam baru start kereta balik rumah....eh sebelum balik tu sempat jugak rembat cd lagu 3 for RM16...
Petang sebelum pergi Williams tu dapat sms dari ex-officemate.... dia nak pergi buat Haji.... bagusnya ...rasanya last year pon dia baru pergi Mekah...tapi tak ingat for Umrah ke Haji...tapi rasanya macam buat Haji....Atas urusan kerja sesambil buat Haji sebab company lama tu ade projek dengan jemaah Haji.....last year sempat gak la pesan kat dia suruh doakan tuan empunya blog ni dimurahkan rezeki dan ditemukan jodoh....Dan kali ni dia tanya lagi, nak mintak tolong doakan apa depan Kaabah... mmmm ikutkan rasa hati macam nak suruh dia doakan benda yang sama macam last year....tapi sound desperate la plak....hehehhe.... ape ye nak mintak ? MMMMMMmmm....Fikir punye fikir rasanya macam dah tau dah nak mintak dia tolong doakan apa depan Kaabah tu.....tapi biarlah rahsia....semoga permintaan doaku dimakbulkan Allah, Amin.
Sekarang ni malam-malam buta asyik hujan lebat jer kat sini....petir kilat pun tak kurang juga nak sambung menyambung dan sambar menyambar ni......mintak2 jgn sambar lappyku dan wifiku sudah la.....kena cabut plug ni cepat2....takut gak betul2 disambarnye ...... Assalamualaikum....
Thursday, 15 October 2009
Xanax 0.5mg cut into half
A day full of ... hmmm...mood swing ? mind twisting ? ooorrr emotional madness? to be honest i'm not quite sure what type of day i had today.... one hour i'm overwhelmed with mind full of self-pity, self-criticizing and feelings of disappointment about everything that had happened in my life and also worrying about my blurred future, the thoughts was so real that makes me run into the toilet to let go off my feelings (crying , of course). Then, i found myself chit chatting and giggling with my colleagues. The next 2 hours after that i had my eyes sticked to the monitor with full concetration switching between work and internet. Then back again thinking of bad and depressing thoughts, missing my arwah Abah a lot and reminisced disputes i had with a 'best friend' and how much i hated what he has done to me but not to mention missing his present during the good old times despite my hatred towards him (however i still don't intend to contact him anymore.) And the cycle goes on and on until the end of the day, as i walk out from my office door the darkness of night surrounded me and suddenly FEAR creeping inside me....it's the sign of panic attack... while trying to contend my panic , i quickly went to Surau, thinking hard to find ways to avoid developing severe panic attack alone bcoz there's not many people working late at the office... my mind wanted to get help by calling someone who can understand my situation, however i ended up calling no one as not many person i knew may understand what i am dealing with.... they sometimes can even makes things worst for me (read: in my opinion people in Malaysia are still not well educated on how to deal with people having panic attacks)....i've tried techniques i've read to reduce panic attack ...yeahh....relaxation techniques and deep breathing...but failed the feeling kept coming back......I then felt confused and started to loose my reality every minutes.... as quick recovery and as a last resort.. i hesitantly popped into my mouth half of xanax 0.5mg.....as the feeling subsided... i safely arrived home with a guilt of taking Xanax because i've experienced how bad it is when you've become dependent with Xanax......
I think it's about time to make appoinment with Dr. Kasmini Kassim
I think it's about time to make appoinment with Dr. Kasmini Kassim
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