Lexapro and Me...

Couples of day before 22 April 2011….

I loathed everytime I need to take my half pills of Lexapro. This is my 2^nd round of Lexapro after i stopped taken it 2 years ago. Last time the effect was great…but this time was a terribly horrible experience…. This things really really super charged my mind and sometimes it shows in form of behavior until I have headache especially in the morning and before bed…. Everyday I wonder why the pills doesn’t work like last time and really can’t wait for my appointment with Dr. Kasmini to ask her why..….tick tock tick tock..

22 April 2011…

I came 30 minutes late for the appointment thanks to pendrive’s with password protection features that took my 30 minutes to figure out what’s the password (techy but not ssooo user friendly)..

Luckily the doc was ok with my lateness, but as punishment I need to wait for another 1 hour before I was called to see her…huhu….its ok for me, I loved waiting..

So the first thing I told her was the super charge of ‘high’ behaviour that I was experiencing when I took Lexapro.. (luckily I’m an introvert type of person, just keep my super charge minds and feelings to myself until I have very bad headache…what if im an extrovert…? can’t imagined what will be during that critical time, maybe i will scold everybody ? or doing crazy things never before in my life ? huhuuu) ..the doc found it really weird because Lexapro supposed to make me relaxed not high, then she started to read my medical history report with a confused look on her face……

AHAAA…the doc shouted when she found what she wanted… she said this supercharged experience due to me not taking my hormone pill together with Lexapro like last time….and she thinks may be I will not need Lexapro at all and just the hormone pills…and said anxiousness is cause by this hormone imbalance in my body…huhu…

However, she still ask me to continue with half Lexapro every other day and insist me to take Yasmin too, and see how I will response with these pills together until the next appointment on 24 May 2011

PS: However since that day I only take my Yasmin….no Lexapro at all…..so far I’m doing great…hehe

Just sharing....

Celaka Lu

Semalam, masa nak turun balik ke kereta selesai habes waktu kerja, tererempak dengan Miss Lai staff IT...

Tetibe je Miss Lai meraba-raba tanganku....sambil bertanya 'My hand is soft, can you feel it ? Lembutkan tangan i'..

Aku yang terkejut akibat tindakan tak diduga Miss Lai tu lantas secara spontan menjawab 'No lah... i think my hand is softer that urs'

'Celaka lu' Miss Lai teriak direct ke telingaku....pergh dia punye celaka tu berdesing telinga aku....

'You saja je nak kenakan i ye Zy'........ terkena lagi aku secepuk....

'Hehehehhe memangpun......dah lama tak nampak you....'...

'Ye lor.... Eh Zy did you notice i've lost 10 kg ?'

'Hah..!! Ye ke...Nampak sama je macam dulu.....' .. sambil ku memandang body Mis Lai dari atas ke bawah berulang-ulang kali...dan baruku perasan memang dia dah kurus

'Celaka lu Zy..... i dah kurus la compare to 2 months ago....'...... Fuh kena lagi celaka....Aku terpinga-pinga kejap....

'I makan product Melilea, bagus wooooo , murah pon murah '...... (aku tak tau eja nama product tu so aku main taram je spelling kat sini)

'O ye ke, nak promote kat i la tu... i tak makan la ubat diet' .. aku menjawab endah tak endah....aku ni bukan nye suka sangat try-try ubat-ubat diet ni....

'CELAKA LU Zy...' Aduih kena lagi......

Berapa banyak punya Celaka la aku kena aritu...

Just sharing....

Still Have Panic Attack Trauma...

Yeah i know i'm not pretty....

Even though it has been a while that i didn't have a full blown of panic attack (Alhamdulillah), sometimes ...well most of the time to be exact, i still traumatizing of having it. Especially during times that i know there's nowhere for me to escape from people seeing me panic attacking...such as during a boat ride...

On the third day of my trip to KK...

We did Island Hopping to Pulau Manukan and Pulau Mamutik....

Maybe with the help of Lexapro i felt less anxious....

But still, in the middle of the journey i felt i'm on the bridge of having an episode and quickly i did the relaxation technique ..deep breathing....

Alhamdulillah, everything went well...my trip to KK was a blast...!!!!

Just sharing....

Susahnya nak panaskan enjin lepas bercuti

Bukan panaskan enjin kete ye...

Enjin kete saya senang je nak panas,senang saja nak 'start' walaupun sudah 6 hari tuan punya kereta tidak membawanya bersiar-siar....

Enjin yang saya maksudkan ialah enjin berfikir dalam kepala saya ini.....atau lebih dikenali sebagai organ otak....

Setelah 6 hari berpoya-poya dan bersuka -ria....kini tiba hari kena bekerja semula....oh sungguh liat.....

Naseb baik la pukul 9 pagi tadi ada praktis koir untuk Annual Dinner...boleh la saya jerit-jeri dulu sebelum menyambung kerja2 ku yang dah lama terbengkalai.....

Tapi bila kembali je ke ofis...hanya sanggup je ngadap monitor.... belum start2 lagi enjin nak buat kerja....fuh.....enjin berblog pulak yang start.... haiyoo...!! tak patut, tak patut....

Cepatlah enjin 'bekerja' ku panas......gua takmo di cop makan gaji buta....tak berkat woooo....

Just sharing....

Pulut Durian

Tempat Kejadian: Dalam kereta Madihah on the way dr LCCTI ke Taman Tun

Hari dan Masa : Jumaat ; 7:30 mlm

Tetibe ngidam pulut durian style Kelantan teramat

Terus meluahkan perasaan kat teman-teman dalam kete....

Lantas ada yang berjangkit ngidam pulut durian ....

Siapa lagi kalau bukan Madihah si gila durian

Ternampak la pulak orang jual durian tepi jalan kat Damansara Utama

Terus berhenti kete beli sejibik D24 RM19.... 1.5 kilogram....

Dan hari ni hari Sabtu lepas kelas Mandarin laju-laju pergi pasar beli beras pulut dan santan...

Sampai di rumah bersihkan rice cooker... basuh beras pulut...

Masukkan air , santan, garam sesudu kecik dan daun pandan dalam rice cooker....Tekan 'Cook'..

Panaskan santan dan sedikit garam.....

Tunggu pulut masak....

Masukkan pulut, santan dan durian...

Voila .....siap di makan....

Ps: Sorry la saya malas nak amek gambar...

Just sharing....