Cuci mata tengok Hans Isaac sampai 2 kali...

Buat julung kalinya Cik Zy pergi tengok teater kat Istana Budaya ......2 kali dalam seminggu....teater yang sama pulak tu...

Bukan Cik Zy sengaja nak pergi tengok teater tu 2 kali.....

Cik Zy sebenarnya dah beli lama dah tiket untuk tayangan hari ini...Cuma tak bayar je lagi harga tiket tu kat tukang beli tiket.....

(dan masih belum bayar lagi di saat ketika entri ini ditulis walaupun dah pergi tengok untuk kali kedua tadi.....dan dah puas gelak sakan untuk kali kedua jugak....)

Cuma tiba-tiba hari Khamis malam Jumaat yang lepas kawan Cik Zy dapat tiket free dan mengajak Cik Zy cuci mata sekali dengan nya...

bagai pucuk dicita ulam pegaga pahit yg dtg Cik Zy menerima pelawaannya dengan hati terbuka ria...

Walaupun 2 kali Cik Zy tengok Cuci ....Cik Zy rasa sungguh happy....walaupun sebenarnya hari ni Cik Zy tak cukup tidur sebab Cik Zy tak dapat tidur atas tilam empuk kepunyaan Cik Zy kerana berkelana di daerah Banting....dan angan-angan Cik Zy bila masuk sahaja ke Panggung Sari di Istana Budaya Cik Zy nak melelapkan mata barang 20-30 minit hancur musnah dek kerana keseronokan menonton Cuci lebih-lebih lagi pabila dapat mencuci mata tengok Hans Isaac yang encem....terbeliak saja mata Cik Zy...Susah sungguh nak katup2....

Just sharing....

Krabi - layan blues sorang2

Hari ke-2 di Krabi sepatutnye kami pergi 4 islands hopping...

aku sungguh excited sebab ia antara aktiviti-aktiviti yang dinanti-nantikan..

tapi ntah macam mane beberapa minit sebelum kami naik bot....

perut aku rasa semacam....

bile ku pandang ke arah bot yg berada di tepi pantai...

makin menjadi-jadi perutku kembung ....rase seram sejuk juga ada....

bile ku pandang lagi ke arah pantai dan ku lihat laut yg terbentang meluas....

mood aku dengan tak semena-mena berubah jadi down...

perasaan takut mula muncul....

bila ku lihat ke arah wajah2 riang kawan2 seangkatan yg bakal menaiki bot bersama2....

ku tertanye...gembiranye mereka nak naik bot....tapi kenapa aku tetibe rasa takut ni ?

tiada seorang pon dari mereka2 ni tau aku ada anxiety disorder...

bolehkah mereka mententeramkan aku jika aku terkena panic attack di dalam bot ?

Tapi aku sendiri tak yakin dengan diriku sendiri....

ku teringat memori di Pulau Perhentian.....aku sungguh gembira menaiki bot ketika itu....

tapi kenapa kali ni rasa semacam? Adalah ubat Xanax yg membuatkan perasaan takutku untuk menaiki bot tiba-tiba muncul...? I am so confused ...so disoriented...

Beberapa langkah sebelum masuk ke dalam bot...

tetibe langit mendung,angin bertiup kencang dan ombak semakin kuat...

ahhhh sudah....ni tak boleh jadi... aku kene buat keputusan sekarang jugak....

nak ikut island hopping atau tinggal seorang kat AoNang.....

Angin makin kuat dan hujan turun rintik2....bot kulihat terhuyung-hayang dipukul ombak..

Kakiku terhenti.... keputusan telah diambil....

aku tak akan menaiki bot.....biarlah aku tinggal seorang kat AoNang layan blues sorang2....

Aku lambaikan tangan pada mereka....

Aku balik ke bilik hotel sorang2....

Tidak lama selepas itu...

Ku lihat hujan makin reda...

langit makin cerah....

aku terbayang alangkah indahnya dapat snorkelling bersama ikan2 di waktu ini...

tp akibat ketakutan aku yg tetibe menjelma....pengalaman ini terpaksa ku lepaskan....

jauh sudut hati ku rasa sungguh marah dgn diri sendiri.......penakut sungguh kamu ini....

fear of flying sudah kamu conquer....tp muncul pula fobia baru...fobia naik boat pulak kah ?

Aduyai....ruginya kamu...

Untuk melegakan rasa resah dihati...dan untuk menghilangkan rasa sungguh rugi tak mengikuti island hopping....

aku pergi berenang di swimming resort sebelah....

aku pergi berjalan2 di tepi pantai AoNang...

aku mandi di pantai sorang2.....

Dan ini hasil gambar yg ku tangkap semasa melayan blues sorang2.....

Just sharing....

Krabi - Muslim Foods - It's easy to find....

Krabi ..having 50% of Muslims population makes it easy for us to find food....

this is one of many stalls selling muslim food at AoNang Road...

located in front of McDonalds...

tom yam kung, variety of sticky glutenous rice, padthai are sold here..

This guy knows how to speak a little bit of Kelantanese

Fried Padthai...siap...!

You can identify muslim food stall by its halal or crescent & moon symbol

This mini desert with sweet and creamy coconut milk sold at

Aonang small night market for 1 baht a piece .....

didn't remember the name...it sounded like something 'Prang'..

These too are also coconut based with sweet sticky rice

Love the pancake.... a must try...! Kakak penkek...say cheese...

and more foods...

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DURIAN TIME!

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and these are the best durian i've ever tasted...

even Musang King cannot beat the deliciousness and the price offered....

RM4.50/kilo...

Look at the size...!!

soft fleshes, smell not too strong, a little bit sweet & bitter,

easy to open no need parang, pisau (knife) also can....

most importantly i didn't get stomached at all..!!

Just sharing....

Xanax Withdrawal

Yeah ...its time to conquer the Xanax withdrawal symptoms yet again..

after 5 tabs of 0.5 mg and 2 tabs of 0.25 mg in between 7 days to help me through my 'holidays' anxieties ...

It was with prescription but not by psychiatrist, before i took the flight to Singapore i went to a family clinic nearby my house which is the second place i would go to sought for help in case if i'm unable to see a psychiatrist. I just explained the problem and the doctor after revising my previous visits with not much hesitation prescribed me 10 tabs of 0.5 mg..

Relatively the dosage I've taken is not too high however from my previous experience it's always been a tough time to deal with the withdrawal symptoms both physically and mentally. Usually, during this period of time i'm easily agitated,hypersensitive, depressed, having depersonalization feeling and became more panicky than Xanax-free period. I also experience hot/cold flashes, tingling, deep burning pain inside abdomen and palpitations.

The worst panic attacks i've ever dealt with was when i unintentionally abruptly stopped Xanax ...it was about 4-5 years ago which i've never heard of Xanax withdrawal symptoms at that point of time (and i thought i was in full of stress and having a rebound which was actually not..). The feeling of severe panic was like something has controlled and clouded my mind with full of fear ...and i've lost control of it . My whole body and organs inside abdomen felt like deep burning wanting to burst....Through this experience, I have learned my lesson not to stopped the medication abruptly...take a lower dose & frequency instead for few more days...

Now i'm more prepared ...more awareness....

if you'are interested to know further about Xanax withdrawal you can read THIS

Just sharing....

jeles...sejeles jelesnye

Mastura ajak pi white water rafting.....Madihah pon ajak juge....

Mastura ajak pi naik gajah....

Madihah ajak pi sky trex kat bukit cherakah...

Elfi ajak gi Universal Studio ... Universal Studio ni ok lagi kot....tak de la extreme sangat....

Bulan 4 next year plak nak gi KK...KK ade canopy walk....derang tak ajak lagi buat canopy walk..... harap2 derang tak tau la pasal ade canopy walk kat KK.....kalo derang tau confirm derang nak pegi situ.......kalo camtu aku yg haru...

TAPIII....aku ni memang azalinya seorang yang penakut....bermacam2 phobia aku ade....

karang nanti buat benda2 extreme ni tetibe panic attack aku menjelma camane ?

Tak ker menyusahkan korang.....tak ke aku akan menjadi pain in the ass korang....

Naik kapal terbang & singapore flyers pon aku takut sbb aku dah anggap macam suicide mission...

inikan pulak nak buat bende2 extreme cenggitu..

TAPIII jauh dilubuk hatiku.....memang naaakkkkk ssseeesssaaannnggggaaatttt buat mende2 tu.....

teruja dan excited.....!!! bile dengaar korang cerita....

tapi trauma akibat anxiety & panic disorder aku ni belom hilang sepenuhnya lagi....

bile la nak hilang ni ?........sedeyyy....

Just sharing....